recognize, through her eyes . . .

With time comes change.
With change comes development.
With development comes growth.

I only ever look forward. I maintain postivity. I do not stand still. I do not look back. I do not look too far ahead. I focus on the present, but look towards the light of an even brighter day as a means of motivation.
As I keep this state of mind constant…I feel continuously content; and for that, I am grateful.

I rise.
Higher & higher.

Once again, I am leaving the country. Packing my bags; gotta go, gotta go. Off to Vegas and San Diego. I love how these trips come at the most appropriate moments. My mind, body, and soul are being well fed.

Well, I’m out. I’ll probably be having too much fun with the gorgeous summer weather to keep in touch…either that, or I bet all my dough on black playing roulette and won mad money; and if that were the case…I’d be off travelling to the next destination…

Peace.

My love for you was for real, little brother.

*R.I.P. Gizmo*

(Stinkmo / Jiz-mo / Gizzy-G / Lolo Gizmo / Luga / Kal-Kal)

You really were the greatest. I’m gonna miss you dawggie.

“Don’t you let them steer you wrong…it’s a groove thang.”

Well, right now…it’s also a time thing.

…and independence is key.

I know.

“So whatcha gonna do?
Keep your body movin’.“

Say do you remember?

I miss the times pre-September 2008…

[how unfortunate]

The heart of Alexisonfire never felt better.

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Stay Golden- in relation to a “golden heart”; a reminder to stay humble, stay positive…simply, stay golden

Get Figthed- Alexis’ play on “carpe diem” (seize the day); in the chorus of their song entitled “Get Fighted,” the chorus speaks such quotes as “love like you’ve never been hurt…dance like there’s no one watching”

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I am committed to the profound.

I’m always hangry. All the time. This 2 in the morning eating habit needs to stop. But it’s soooo good. Needed? YES…ok, maybe not.

It’s only acceptable if I’m eating that yummy vibe….mmmmmmm. Yeah, that certainly is great.

I am a hangry hangry hippo.

I’m shleepy, but I don’t want to hit my pillow just yet. My dreams have been strange lately. Unusually detailed…and so obscure.

…it must be those 2am snacks.

The possibility of relocation came up once again…and this time it seemed a little more real. As I thought about such a thing, I actually became quite sad. There once was a time when I was all for it…I would leave in an instant…but now, I don’t think I could say the same.

I’ve grown very fond of the city that I reside in. I’ve grown into myself, who I am, and who I want to be…and I feel like I am in the right place. Also, the thought of separating from V16 is unbearable. Now, the idea isn’t for certain; it won’t be for another year or so…possibly when I’m done school…but, my perspective has changed. Mamacita says that she can’t leave me, and that she’d take me with her. I don’t know if I’m ready for such a thing…but hey, whatever happens, happens…I suppose.

Maybe I’ll go. Maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll find my own place here. Maybe this is a good thing…

I’m all for change.
Change for the better.

I don’t know.
But as for now…

I am where I belong.

I just can’t wait to leave….

To get out. To escape my thoughts. To escape this everyday routine. To simply escape…reality. To escape into a beautiful paradise. White sands. Turquoise waters. Where no one knows my name. Where I can be free to do as I please. Where I can have unlimited joy and happiness. Where my chest no longer pains me. Where I can immerse myself in the simple pleasures that with every breath, I am only greatful. Where I am around the people that I love, and the people who love me. Where I do not have to worry about love at all. Where I can bask in the sunlight and feel all warm and toasty. Where I can splash in the beautiful blue waters and swim freely. Where I do not have anything holding me back. Where I can wake up to a sunny window with excitement to hit the beach. Where the only thing I need to be wearing is a bathing suit and sunscreen. Where I can turn my sillyness on full blast. Where I can laugh as loud as I want. Where I can smile as much as I want. Where I can dance as much as I want. Where I can eat and drink as much as I want. Where I can enjoy as much as I want…Where I can simply be who I want….and escape who I am…

I just can’t wait to meet you again…

The open pages to paradise…

I await you, Dominican…

That lasted long…was it really that easy? shit, I feel special.