My soul is on a radiant fire. Sometimes it’s much too much to comprehend, but it is a feeling that really isn’t all that hard to fathom. For you are in every which way a valid reason for the elevation of my being within. Sometimes I feel like she is detached from my flesh; rising higher into the sky, and the only thing keeping my exterior planted on the ground is gravity. However, like I said once before…gravity ain’t got nothing on me.
Everything that is you, is beyond the configured, dreamed, imagined, non-existent form of a man that I have ever stormed up in my vibrant coloured mind…and as creative as I can get with mixing brights, shades, tones, and pastels…I would have never thought up- you. All that I have ever wanted, beautifully exceeded a figment of intertwined heart beats and hopeful brain neurons. You are like the invention of a new colour; and you make my ongoing master piece shine as if it were under positive, electric love spot lights. I don’t believe that there is even such a thing…but what I do know is that since you came in to my blessed brightly coloured world- the pigments became more intense and I step into a place that feels like red velvet cheesecake, peach yogurt, vanilla ice cream, avocado shakes, Starbucks lattes, Extra gum in Maui Melon, warm blankets, aloe vera drinks, Life-Savers gummies, heated car seats…I could go on forever…and though all of those things are tangible, I am in a place where they have now become feelings. With you, I explore horizons that I thought only existed in sparkly fairy tales…but this, is reality. Your heart of gold, your beautiful character, your down-to-earth demeanor, your humbleness, your spiritual light, your sweetness, your genuiness, your kindness, your craziness, your smile, your voice, your hugs, your kisses…it is all REAL. You are REAL. We are for real. Now, I could use the word lucky…and I often feel that way sometimes…but you my love, are a beautiful blessing. I know that He sent you to me; for there is no other explanation for this realistic dream to be placed in my life. My gratitude goes beyond limitless turquoise waters; glistening under warm sunlight.
I was once flying skies with alizarin sunsets feeling free and elated…but since our Creator placed you beside me on the canvas that we were so delicately stroked onto- I fly skies with orange moons, shooting stars, and sheets of deep indigo, waiting patiently for glorious royal sunrises. The terms free and elated fall short from the feeling you provide; it’s something more than butterflies- it’s as heavenly as the starry skies. And as indescribable as this realistic dream is, I will continue to reach for heights of my aspirations. Praying that we will maintain ascension, growing- through Him; the heart and soul that is our reason for existence.
My love for you is as deep as the tones of jewels on the crown of a king. You, are my handsome king…and as your queen- I will stand by your side; in which I pray will be…
Forever.
Sincere fervent love,
The voice of my heart
I am a fortunate woman.
I am rich.
And my wealth is one that I’d like to share.
You see, my wealth is one beyond money;
I wouldn’t want there to be any confusion.
If you took my wallet, the only appealing thing would be the pictures inside, and maybe a shiny dollar;
But if you’re looking for some riches, it would be clear that my wealth is beyond things material.
You see, when I say that I am rich,
I am speaking about my heart.
I am part of a royal family,
And the Lord is my Heavenly Father;
The King,
And I am His daughter.
I live a life that is indeed blessed by His grace.
I wake up to sweet air,
I live in a secure home,
I get out of a warm bed,
I drink crystal clear water,
I eat a meal that nourishes my body,
I have a loving family,
I have an amazing man by my side,
I have wonderful friends,
I have an education,
I have a job,
I…have a life.
I am a fortunate woman,
Who is blessed by the riches of God’s unfailing love.
We sometimes take for granted all that we have…
But instead we should be thankful.
Incredibly grateful.
And that- I am.
For my heart is wealthy.
It is golden.
It is soft.
It is open-
To Him.
I am a fortunate woman.
And my Heavenly King provides me with the effervescent riches of the heart…
His instructions were placed on my heart.
And I will boast in His divine grace.
You see, my rich is a different kind of rich.
But, it’s the best kind.
Living life on earth, people are often overtaken by the other meaning…
But this is temporary.
Our real treasures are the ones that we store within our hearts,
Not within our closets,
Our wallets,
Our homes…
Those things don’t matter…
I am certainly a fortunate woman.
And the beauty of my wealth is radiant within my faith;
My trust in Him-
The one that provides me with life;
The sweet air,
The secure home,
The warm bed,
The crystal clear water,
The meal that nourishes me,
My loving family,
My amazing man,
My wonderful friends,
My education,
My job,
My…life.
The earthly kind of rich is one that is not appealing…
But it is that of the heart which is the most desirable.
Take a look at what surrounds you.
For it is He who has provided.
He is the one that gets you through the day.
He is the one that makes that shiny dollar last you however long it takes.
For He is the reason why we live.
I am a very fortunate woman,
I am assured of His faithfulness,
And I share my wealth…
With you.
From an outsider’s perspective you’d assume that I was falling,
But I find it hard to believe when I feel as if I’m being lifted;
Rising-
Into the warm embrace of God’s love
And the warmth that I feel when he’s on my mind.
So different.
So refreshing.
Unlike anything I’ve ever experienced before.
Whatever the Lord has in store,
Is what I look forward to.
My patience flows in the peace that I am provided with;
Through His intent.
Thus, I feel nothing but content.
Though our feelings were revealed and so wonderfully mutual;
We understand the sensitive situation.
Therefore we take our steps slowly,
And on God we rely.
I’m addicted to the light that takes me higher;
Gravity ain’t got nothing on me.
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I want to scream; loud / deafening.
I want to kick; high / hard / strong.
I want to punch; your lights out.
Come.
Closer.
I want.
You.
To get in.
My face.
Damn.
Watching this was like seeing my heart verbalize its emotions on stage.
She could not be more precise.
She could not be more real.
I feel her to the deepest of depths.
“…apparently, you forgot; that honesty begins by being real with yourself, and the ones you claim you love. The truth cannot be hidden.
What’s clouded in darkness will always come to light my love. You should have known that. Claiming you saw my light so clearly and brightly. I guess shit happens…”
But, being the amazing women that we are; we always remain shining.
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“Some n*ggas recognize the light, but they can’t handle the glare.” -Com Sense
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My heart on stage could not be more passionate.
I’m speechless.
I do not. I will not. I simply refuse.
I’m not going to stop.
EVER.
This feeling is so good.
It’s delicious.
This energy is so sweet.
Such a beautiful aroma.
Like freshly baked cupcakes;
Creamy frosting,
And candy coated sprinkles.
So fresh.
So divine.
It’s almost heavenly…
Mmmmmmmmm.
I want to eat this vibe.
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Also, my family is the best.
Unconditional love and happiness…
I don’t need anything else.
Their love is ridiculous.
Their love is too-
Delicious.
Ooooooh how I love the gorgeous weather. When the sun shines so bright, I just can’t help but smile… It’s days like today that make me appreciate all of the blessings that I have in my life. It’s days like today that make me feel all warm inside. I don’t know what it is…but this whole week, I’ve been incredibly…content…elated…exalted…I just feel…at peace.
I’ve got this feeling of humble beauty that has really taken over me…
Some part of me doesn’t quite know how to react to it…the other part is nothing but grateful. I don’t remember the last time I’ve ever felt this amazing. I usually appear quite happy…but that doesn’t even begin to describe the way that I feel…it’s so much more. Regardless…right now is what it is. Know that…this feeling is achievable; it is all subsequent to your approach. And though I do consider myself a “little miss sunshine” kind of person…I don’t always feel that way. I too hit lows…I run into bullshit…probably more than you’d think. However, the key to maintaining such a positive outlook is simple: attitude.
I vow to humble myself through EVERY situation I encounter…and it’s honestly the best thing you could possibly do. Because once you’ve decided that you do not have the time and energy to waste on any problem, trial, dilemma…any negative…you reach this point; and you’ll be assured that there is nowhere else to go…but UP.
*Know what your worth, what you deserve, and how you deserve to be treated.
Keep your faith strong.
STAY GOLDEN.
Shine.
…and don’t ever stop.
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I had the opportunity to share some dope vibes with the sun today, and I wrote in the park…I intend on doing this much more often.
SOLEIL
As the clouds shifted,
The sun shone through.
Gleaming.
Glowing.
Bright.
As the weather changed,
So did she;
For the better-
Always for the better.
Growing beautifully
Like a flower in bloom.
She stood tall.
Confident and strong.
Refreshed;
As if a crisp rainfall had watered her soil.
The light nurtures and guides her.
Growing constantly.
Constantly wanting to grow.
Her faith keeps her planted and humble.
Her heart and soul- her roots
Are grounded deep in positivity.
The sun is her mentor.
Reminding her to shine.
And she promises to never stop…
No matter what the weather,
She won’t ever stop.
Gleaming.
Glowing.
Bright.
She stands tall.
Growing.
Maintaining ascension.
She remains shining…
Even brighter than the sun.
(Shout outs to Robin. XO)
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RIGHT HERE
It took me some time,
But I now feel like I am here.
In the present.
PRESENTLY.
Mind & body.
Heart & soul.
One day at a time.
I put my fear behind me,
Realizing how much it tore me apart;
How much it tore us apart…
But now,
I’d like to start
Fresh & new.
Right here.
With you.
No more doubts.
We will live only-
Right here.
Focusing on each other
And the love that God had allowed to grow.
No jumping forward,
Nor jumping back.
We will progress at our own pace.
We will run our own race.
We will be right here, right now.
We will walk together.
We will fly together.
Two hearts.
Two minds.
Two souls.
Two individuals-
Equal.
We will let things flow.
Only seeking growth and development.
Letting our lights shine.
We will be divine.
Positively.
Right here.
No longer will I fear.
The thought of you alone,
Makes me feel safe.
And I know that I do not want to be anywhere else in the world-
But right here.
Right here with you.
Right here with me.
I had once loved you blindly,
But now I see…
Feeling lighter than ever
As if I could fly.
I spread my wings
And I reach out to you my hand.
Letting you know that through any storm…
I will confidently stand.
My mind is now open,
And so is my heart.
So, I now wonder…
Do you think that we could start?
Right here.
Just me and you?
No more trippin’
No feeling like I’m out of breath…
Because as I regain my senses I am more breathless than before…
The butterflies in my stomach want something more…
Than this feeling,
This high.
If you let me…
I will try.
We will try together.
Maintaining this embrace.
I am officially done with space.
I want to be right here.
Right here with you…
So, tell me…
How do you feel?
You know what’s real…
So, do you…
Just as much as I,
Want to be…
Right here?
I have been reminded of the person who I was….the self that I had lost when I had come face to face with fear. Letting my doubts, my worries, my way….consume me, and losing sight of the individual that was once so easygoing, relaxed, and confident.
This is a blog that I had posted almost 2 years ago… (I’ve “bolded” the things that presently stand out to me….my “reminders”)
I HAVE A PLAN
[Monday, September 17, 2007; 12:20pm]
“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” [Jeremiah 29:11]
I don’t like to over-analyze…I like to let things flow….I’ve learned that you shouldn’t worry so much about certain things in life, and instead, you need to learn to enjoy it…
Some people have these clear-cut goals set out for them- for example, knowing what they want to be from the age of 5, and growing up to be just that…..But it doesn’t work out that way for everyone….Not everybody knows what they want- whether it be a specific career or what they feel like wearing that day- indecisiveness comes across everybody some time. I used to be the pickiest person in the world…but growing up, I’ve learned to just appreciate what I had…and to be happy- because whatever it was would be a blessing in itself…Ok, the point of this whole thing is to put across the point that everybody’s got a plan….Even if it seems like the plans that we have for ourselves seem to disperse in different directions…it’s alright, because God’s got something bigger and better for us…We need to stop spending our lives worrying about what we wish we had, what we wish we didn’t have, and we need to start focusing on what we already have in our lives.
…We need to stop overlooking every little detail….because sometimes, the “overlooking” makes us lose sight of what’s right in front of us. We need to stop worrying about tomorrow…“Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” [Matthew 6:34] We need to appreciate what we have…and when things don’t seem to go right..when things don’t seem to go as we had “planned”…we know that we can count on God to help us…especially when we feel like we can’t help ourselves….
Life’s crazy…but the best thing we can do is live….“
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Reading this blog had opened my eyes to so much…
How much I have been missing out on because I’ve spent so much time worrying. But now looking back, and being reminded of the person that I was…the one that simply liked to let things flow, enjoy the scenery, appreciate what she had presently; with no fear, worry, or doubt of what was to come in the future, because she was confident…in herself, but especially her faith…
I have been reminded…and I want to be her again…
One day at a time.
No worries.
No doubts.
No fears.
I’m here.
Right here.
In the present.
PRESENTLY.
Mind & body.
Heart & soul.
I’m here.
No.
More.
Fear.
I rest easy.
